2016. (actually it's 2015)

Happy very late New Year everyone. Kind of late for a New Year blogpost, huh?

Thanks to a very, very packed schedule, I haven't been able to write leisurely.

Up to this moment.

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So, happy 2016...! I hope everything is going, and will be fine for any of you reading this.

2015 was a crappy, crappy year for me.

For the first 3 months, I was shuffled between 2 government and state departments in order to confirm my pre-university enlistment status which cost me and my parents money, energy and time.

For the next 7 months, my enlistment was secured, but I was cooped up in a hellhole  boarding school which nearly drove me nuts, degraded my musicianship, brought me new health problems and worsened existing ones. And to top it all off, I didn't learn anything from that particular course. I forgot everything I've learnt a week after the leaving exams.

The only things I learnt was how stupid, immature, unreliable and cocky I was. I also learnt how much of a Blue Falcon ( slang for buddy f**ker, a person who is willing to screw over those around him/her just to save him/herself) I was.(I did, however miss a handful of people). There was this ONE awesome day, though. (sigh)

The last two months though, were the worst; I ended a 3-year (almost 4) commitment that I wasn't supposed to. I cried the night it happened. I wasn't able to function for several days after. After several days, I backtracked. But by that time, I was already drained all to hell.




And I don't know how 2016 is going to be like.

All I know is that I want to improve myself this year.

Improve on the fields that I'm passionate in, improve my living skills, improve my social skills, improve my attitude.

I want to find myself, figure myself out; who I really am.

Seven months of living with people who I couldn't stand (no matter how much I tried) made me want to study somewhere I can gain knowledge that I can utilize and find out more about myself and improve on it.

Being in a situation that I'm not used to taught me what to be and not to be.

The result? Now I know.

2016? Let's go.